Dear readers, when flare-ups come around my life I feel like the MG Scrooge and I just want to say “Humbug”.
I’m not going to write about the specifics of our flare-ups because each one of us will have a different story to tell. I’d like to humbly share my feelings about these awful flare-ups reaching out to others so we can make the best of it together.
I hate to feel weak.
It makes me cranky, sad and defeated. The worse part is knowing that my body is doing this to me AGAIN. It feels like I’m punching myself in the face. Ouch!
I wanted to make this point because sometimes other people think it’s easy for me to remain positive and cheery all the time when the truth is I’m not feeling like that at all.
However being the hopeless believer I am, after my initial “humbug” I come around and begin the healing process once more. At this point I’m not that interested in healing my body, but healing my drenched spirit. Getting it together and moving forward once again.
Even though my family loves me tons and tries to do the best to support me, sometimes I need to attain comfort within me so I can deal with the issues each relapse brings. I can have them a million times and each one of them is going to be different except for the weakness which all of us know is the common denominator.
Reading and listening to music helps me tons. One of my favorite blogs to read ever is from Cathy Chester, she battles multiple sclerosis and through her writings I feel better because I can relate to many things she brings to the table.
One of my favorite authors is Jane Austin, and in her book Emma, there’s a quote I absolutely love,
“It is well to have as many holds upon happiness as possible.”
For all of us happiness means different things, but one is common to all human race and it’s about finding solace and peace within our lives. Facing a chronic illness takes away so much, that it’s darn difficult not to become Scrooges.
I would always think about the negative whey before bringing any positives into context. Nowadays, I’m trying to retrain my brain, so positive thinking comes always first.
Many times I’ve smirked at myself, thinking, “Who am I kidding?”, but I always come back and try to just collect myself and keep on going. It’s so easy to give up and so hard to keep my spirits up.
But, you know my dear friends, all of us are a work in progress. For some it’s gonna be easy, for others not so. However, let’s hang in there, because like Phil Collins sings, “It’s gonna be all right.”
Don’t forget to find meaning and purpose in each day, and to reach out to others. When we give it a try, it’s pretty amazing.
I invite you to come along on my quest for wellness not only of my body, but most importantly of my soul