Dear readers, regardless to say and I’m sure all of you know that life brings hundreds of sounds that people, animals or things make into our lives. However, I’ve lived through days surrounded by these sounds and at the same time I’ve felt a compelling sense of loneliness.
We all face our share of loneliness.
The ironic part is that like robots we respond, interact and even manage to laugh about or with those who surround us. However, we feel lonely in a room full of people.
Since I have a big family, I have a busy phone and kitchen. My husband and myself satellite around our kitchen and phones. I listen to endless conversations and always try to be a good listener and to an extent try to fix things that I feel are wrong if I can. In other words, I try to make like comfortable for all of them. Fill in voids with my voice and cheer them with my laughter, comfort and hug them all as much as I can. Nevertheless, I’m trapped in a lonely world sometimes.
Living with MG is a lonely path.
It would be nice to listen to someone ask me not if I’m well or not, but to listen to,
“How are you feeling?” But for real. Actually an outlet to let go of all my steam, to bear my soul, or to spill it all out.
My loneliness is not but a stream of thoughts about my life and how it’s changed during the past ten years.
My loneliness is a fair cry of a bird that wants to spread her wings and fly to the vast horizons.
Don’t get me wrong I know that I’m loved and cherished, and always have been. That’s not something I’m enjoying now because I’m ill, but it’s been part of my life ever since he became part of it as well. However, that doesn’t take away how I feel.
I’ve come to terms with the fact that my loneliness is mine to face only.
So my dear friends, next time the sun comes up with its majestic sunrise and accompanying sounds I will move on trying to cope with my loneliness and making the best of it. Maybe next time around I’ll find an opportunity to talk to someone of things that are important at least to me.
Don’t forget to be kind to yourself and to others.
Thanks for stopping by to read about life with Myasthenia and making me company on my journey to wellness. See you around.