The Big, The Little & All In Between

Dear readers, as I pushed through the doors leading to the chapel at Union Theological Seminary to get some ice cream after my daughter’s graduation and I saw for the very first time a flight of stairs that could have been as high as Mount Everest, the words that came through my mouth were, “Jesus Christ”.

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You know life is like that sometimes, you just don’t expect situations that startle and alter your course and yet there they are.  Mostly we go on to voice just any words that comes to mind and face two alternatives, or either we back away or we tackle them full throttle.

Well I decided to tackle Mount Everest full throttle.  So off I went, step by step using the side bar as my assistant, I was almost half through when one of my daughter’s friends, Shawn, came to my rescue.   He offered me his hand and I gracefully took it and we went on, he gently said, “ice cream awaits”.

No explanations were asked or given as to why I  couldn’t  manage a three short flight of stairs.  When we reached our destination a thank you and hug were given and exchanged and we made the line together to get our much desired ice cream cone.

Having this disability has taught me many valuable life lessons, specially that I can’t back away from events in my life that may be seen as problems.  It’s easy and cowardice to do nothing at all to conquer a barrier.

In the minute I began my climb I took control of my life, yet I did need help, but that’s fine.  It’s all part of living with MG, I usually am going to need help.  The thing is that I accept that help gracefully and with gratitude.  Sometimes that help comes from a total stranger, a friend or a family member and each and every time it does, I’m just grateful.  I’ve learned not to resent that helping hand, but to embrace it.

I utilize this same approach for the big, little and all in between situations that suffice in my life.

I’ve come to terms with the phrase, “I used to do”, and have replaced it with,  “I do with the help of”.  The most important for me now a days is feeling I have control of my life and living the best I can utilizing the resources I have at hand.  Sometimes it means letting go and relinquishing the past.  It’s best to focus on the now and let the tomorrow take care of itself.

We are still in control of who we are and how we choose to live our lives.

See you around the corner and remember to be kind to yourself and to those who surround you every day.

Hasta pronto!

 

 

 

 

 

You Can Do This or That

Dear readers,  as a MG patient I get a lot of “you  can’t do this” or “you can’t do that” sort of speech more often than I should.  However, once in a while my ears turn deaf to all those assumptions.

Against to what other people may think they know about me and my MG, I decided to plan a holiday in New York and visit my daughter in school, where I would do this and that.

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I had a schedule with my six year old and was not going to deviate from it.

Consequently my journey began.

I  walked blocks and blocks on Amsterdam to buy Hungarian pastries and find about how they’re done and what’s in them.  I returned to the shop twice and saw everything in between.

I walked the Central Park Zoo and made sure he saw everything there was to see.  Actually I compromised for my family’s mental stability, my goal was Bronx Zoo.  Didn’t get around this time, but sure am next time.

I hopped on the Metro to the Museum and sat on a bench with my friend Teddy Roosevelt chatting about why was he interested in Puerto Rico after winning the Hispanic War back at the end of the 19th century, and had a wonderful time with Ian digging some artifacts out of the sand.

Even though I am a very resilient person, I could have not done it without a little bit of help of a high dose a prednisone my neuro let me have while I was in NYC.   Now it’s time to get back to my day to day life and my prednisone needs to come down. I know I’ll miss having that little extra pump for my day, but vacations are the small pockets in life where you get to live with a little bit of fantasy going on and sometimes we just need to have that in our lives if even for a small amount of time.

Meanwhile my friends,  let go even if for a little bit, be kind to yourself and others and make me company on my many journeys  to wellness.  Thanks for stopping by.

See you around fellow snowflakes.